Friday, May 18, 2012

Holding On

I have a personal photographer for my weight loss journey. She came over last night, with her fancy pants camera, and went all though my house looking for the best location for my photo session. J was so gracious!! She took light meter readings and did lots of other complicated photographer stuff.

We plan to take photos every 10 pounds. So this was set one! Down 10 pounds. They probably aren't that much different than starting shots at this point, but I when I get closer to my goal weight I want to put them in a time lapse video. I thought it would be fun.

This time my journey feels so different. I plan to keep holding on...

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

The Fear of Failure

Fears can rule us. I have a fear of failure. I don't try somethings because I don't want to fail. It dawned on me today that perhaps this part of my weight problem.

I have told VERY few people that I am actively working on losing weight. Not because I don't think they will care, but because I don't want to let them down if I fail. I don't want people to think "Oh here she goes again, how long will this last?"

I have joined Weight Watchers. So far it's going well. I swore I'd never pay to lose weight again. However, I was not doing it on my own.

The journey feels different this time. I'm tracking EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth. The future will tell....

Monday, March 5, 2012


Brick and I bought a new house in January. We moved in on February 11th. After that we'd been on a marathon of fixing our old home up for our renters.

We painted nearly every wall, refinished the floors, installed new light fixtures, and cleaned from get garret to the cellar. Brick even recruited guys from work to come help us get it all done.

This past weekend was our first weekend in the new house where we didn't have to go to the old one or have repairmen coming to the new one. It was nice.

The two of us just bustled around the house together, unpacking a box or two, fixing the ceiling fan in the bedroom, and reprogramming the code for the garage door. We both spent time talking on the phone with family and friends.

It was GREAT! What did you do this weekend??

Friday, March 2, 2012

Giving Up

For the past year or so, I've been struggling with horrific headaches. The kind where light and sound actually hurt. In January I was referred to neurologist.

The neurologist was very kind. She noticed that I'm an iPhone junkie and suggested an app for my headaches called iHeadache. It's VERY cool. I put in my symptoms, meds, outside interferences, and it classifies the headache. She can even down load the information to my medical chart.

Her second suggestion was to give up caffeine. Cold turkey. My response "Excuse me, what?" Give up, what??

I am/was a caffeine addict. Now I love, Love, LOVE diet Coke. I drink entirely too much of it. All caffeinated. All day long.

Well on January 28th I did it. I went cold turkey. It was brutal. The first 48 hours were literally a detox session as my body cried out for it. But I did it.

It's been 35 days since I've had any caffeine. Headaches almost no existent. Hopefully this is one habit I have kicked.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Letting Go of Failure

Out of the blue this morning I received an e-mail from a former classmate from an emotional eating class. She thanked me for my blog and my honesty. This prompted me to look at my blog. Last post, 01/25/2011. That's one year, one month and three days ago. (Darn you leap year, you added an extra day!)

So, I'm going to let go of the feeling of failure about blogging. I have gained weight during my absence, and I have done a lot of other things too. But we'll talk about them later.

If you are still following me, thank you!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Week 1 - Redone

Weighed in this morning - I haven't gained an ounce. Not one! This reinforces to me that it's just silly to be afraid of the damn scale.

So... current weight is 303

Thank you to Irv for poking me, to Jaime for ALWAYS being supportive, and Jen for reminding me that's it not about perfection, it's about moving forward.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

First Post of the Year

It's been over a month since my last post. If you'd like to know what I've been up's eating. Eating. Eating. And more eating. I've entered a really tough phase, and I haven't wanted to post.

Irv nudged me about it the other day, and I promised him I would post the next day. So...I'm here now.

I didn't make it through the holidays very well. Since then it hasn't been quite a free for all, but it hasn't been much better. The sugar intake has been absolutely ridiculous.

I'm disappointed in myself. When I get like this it's very hard to get out.

Step one is to want to get out...I think. Tomorrow I will weigh myself and post it. We'll go from day or one moment at a time.